False Starts and Expectations

The irony is so thick it makes me sick
I was afraid to get hurt
My head spinning like a top
With negative thoughts
I cried, I tried
To explain
But all that came out was
No

Now I'm the one
Hurt
And you're the one
Confused

You said I'm not ready
But I am
When I said I wasn't good at this
That wasn't doublespeak
That was as clear as I could be

I'm trying
Crying
To communicate
And now you're shut down
Shut
Off

Because now you're the one
afraid
To get hurt.
Saying,
No.

So who's really afraid?
And who's really trying?

And in the end,
Will this be a suffocated dream?

Full of possibility
Hope

A thought unfinished